2002-03-13 - 11:12
First things first.
My name is Lorina.
I'm a 29 year old (and holding) who's still trying to figure out what she wants
to be when she grows up. Shit. I don't even think I want to grow up.
Here's my life
in a nutshell so far...
grows up (more or less), becomes cool, finds a boyfriend, becomes an artist,
decides there's no money in it, becomes a crafter, starts her own business,
decides she hates it, decides she hates her boyfriend, quits both, becomes a
web designer, finds a new boyfriend, loves him, marries him, and realizes that
being a web designer is not going to be something she can do for the rest of
It's not that I
don't like doing web design. I love it, especially when I'm working on my own
sites or have a great client who gives me free rein to do whatever I want. But
I know that in order to keep doing this, I'm going to have to relearn everything
every few years. It would be one thing if this were an important and well-paying
job. If I were a surgeon, and had to learn new techniques and improve the way
I treated people... I'd have no problem. But this isn't going to get me a Jaguar
and a mansion. This is barely paying the bills.
So... it's time
to look for something else. It's time to start pursuing what I'd like to do
every day for the rest of my life.